life on the side...

six numbers, one more to dial before I'm before you I tried to call been busy all night gave up waiting at daylight...

Excuse me Mr. Busybody could you pencil me in when you can?

though we both know that the worst part about it

is I would be free when you wanted me...

...if you wanted me.

ohhhhh... I am the one on the side hoping you'll make up your mind I am the one who will swallow my pride. One of the many.

One of the few to stand back and wait for you.

I fell in love with the dream

taking my own advice, I'm giving up tonight.

Good luck to you and the queen.

I would be free when you wanted me ...if ever you wanted me...

the way you move me....

Leave the light on,

i'll never give up on you.

Leave the light on,

for me too...

To my Immortal Beloved,

My angel, my all, my very self.

Why this deep sorrow when necessity speaks, can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding everything from one another? can you change the fact that you are not wholly mine, I not wholly thine?

My heart is full of so many things to say to you, ahhh, there are moments when I feel that speech amounts to nothing at all... but cheer up, remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours.

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us. I can live only wholly with you or not at all. Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I am in your arms and say that I am really at home with you.

Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest. Oh, continue to love me, never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

Ever thine, ever mine; ever ours.

Your faithful.

lo que te esta sobrando a mi me salva la vida...

A veces no pienso, me vuelvo tan fria y no estoy... A veces me ausento de mis sentimientos, y luego sonrió, recuerdo y me aferro a vivir...Y a veces quisiera matar por tu amor, tan solo por un momento...

Y es que todavía no encuentro lo que en mi seria normal para darte mucho más, y entregarme por completo... Sexo, pudor o lágrimas, me da igual.

Me quieres ver grande a pesar de lo débil que soy y si toco hasta el fondo me sacas de nuevo... Por eso me quedo, me aferro y te quiero a morir, por eso aquí adentro tu estas todo el tiempo...viviendo del sufrimiento.

Y es que todavía no encuentro lo que en mi seria normal para darte mucho más, y entregarme por completo... Sexo, pudor o lágrimas, me da igual.

como si....

Yo ayer he entendido que desde hoy sin ti comienzo otra vez, y tú...aire ausente, casi como si yo fuese transparente, alejándome de todo, escapar de mi tormento.

Pero me quedo aquí sin decir nada...sin poder despegarme de ti y eliminar cada momento que nos trajo el viento y poder vivir... como si no nos hubiéramos amado.

Yo sobreviviré, no me preguntes cómo, no lo sé, el tiempo cura todo y va a ayudarme a sentirme diferente... a que pueda olvidarte, aunque es un poco pronto.

Me quedo inmóvil aquí sin decir nada...sin poder aburrirme de ti y eliminar cada momento que nos trajo el viento y poder vivir... como si no nos hubiéramos amado

...como si nunca te hubiera amado , como si no hubiese estado así... y quisiera huir de aquí, quisiera escaparme. Pero me quedo otra vez, sin decir nada, sin gritarte: ¨ven, no te vayas, no me abandones sola en la nada" amor...

...después, después, después viviré como si no nos hubiéramos amado.

...como si nunca me hubieras amado.

Epiphany

Certain things are just not meant to be....

no matter how much we wish they were.

PS:>

I've had a hard time walking into a room full of people on my own. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let everyone know... you're with him. You're his.

i surrender.

Theres so much life Ive left to live and this fire's burning still. When I watch you look at me I think I could find the will to stand for every dream, and forsake the solid ground, and give up this fear within of what would happen if they ever knew I'm in love with you.

Cause I'd surrender everything to feel the chance to live again. I reach to you, I know you can feel it to... We'd make it through a thousand dreams, I still believe, I'd make you give them all to me. I'd hold you in my arms and never let go...I surrender.

I know I can survive another night away from you, but you're the reason I go on, and now I need to live the truth..Right now, theres no better time from this fear I will break free and I'll live again with love, and no the they cant take that away from me...

Every night is getting longer and this fire is getting stronger, babe I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive...Did you hear my call? I surrender all.

Right here, right now I give my life to live again, I'll break free, take me...Take my everything, I surrender all to you.

so sorry

Look, im sorry. Im sorry for bothering you. Im sorry for all the texts I send you. Im sorry for IMing you the second you get online. Im sorry I keep asking if youre free to hang out. Im sorry I ask random questions. Im sorry that I ask about your life. Im sorry that im a bother to you. Im sorry that I always recite all those silly friendship quotes. But heres the truth. Im not sorry for any of those things; I only did it because you’re my friend. What im really sorry for is that you don’t realize how much our friendship means to me. Im sorry that I have a deep worry that this friendship wont last much longer. Im sorry I wanted to talk to you. Im sorry I wanted to get your opinions and advice on things. Im sorry I wanted to hang out with you. I just thought that’s what friends did. Im sorry I was willing to do anything to get your attention. I didn’t know being friends was too much to ask from you. Im sorry that im now left with only memories of what used to be. Please do me one favor, when you see the tears gently falling down my cheeks, don’t try to comfort me. I don’t need a reminder of how I could always tell you everything, how you'd sit by me and just hold me while I cried. So please, if this is over, then lets just say our goodbyes and walk away and not look back, because I cant believe that a friendship I once held so dear to my heart is now fading to nothing. Now thats really what Im sorry for.

Eternal sunshine of the SPOTLESS mind

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green, I hope when you’re in bed with her you think of me.

I would never wish bad things but I don’t wish you well. Could you tell by the flames that burned your words? I never read your letter cause I knew what you’d say.

Does it hurt to know i'll never be there? bet it sucks to see my face everywhere... It was YOU who chose to end it like you did.

I was the last to know, you knew exactly what you would do. Don’t say you simply lost your way..She may believe you but I never will, never again.

If she really knows the truth she deserves you, a trophy wife..Oh how cute! Ignorance is bliss, but when your day comes and she’s through with you (and she’ll be through with you) you’ll die together but alone.

Repent yourself away

Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

so this is how it feels to wanna kill someone.

butterflies in me

I've been awake for a while now you've got me feelin like a child now cause every time i see your bubbly face i get the tinglies in a silly place It starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose wherever it goes i always know that you make me smile please stay for a while now just take your time where ever you go you give me feelings that i adore What am i gonna say when you make me feel this way I just...mmm... I've been asleep for a while now you tucked me in just like a child now cause every time you hold me in your arms I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth It starts in my soul and I lose all control when you kiss my nose the feeling shows cause you make me smile baby just take your time holdin me tight

There used to be a greying tower alone on the sea. You became the light on the dark side of me. Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill. But did you know That when it snows my eyes become large and The light that you shine can be seen. Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the grey. The more I get of you, stranger it feels. There is so much i can tell you, so much i can say. There's so much inside. You remain my power, my pleasure, my pain...to me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?

Un sol negro, negra luz los perros vomitan plástico azul los relojes marchan al revés y el invierno aparece bajo tus pies.

Siento vértigo siento vértigo. Siento vértigo siento vértigo.

Hay un maldito ruido en este gran carnaval y en el palacio del fuego hay un extraño animal que se apodera de ti, que se apodera de mí

Negro sol, sol de llanto de mi adicción y mi quebranto. Negro sol verde luna la carne rota y el alma cruda.

Siento vértigo siento vértigo. Siento vértigo siento vértigo.